With nothing to fear.

2012-02-23T07:53:00.001-08:00

I FORGOT TO MENTION,
I think he was trying to hint me that he's from xinming sec
haha boy i alr know, I have connections everywhere ^^

2012-02-23T07:44:00.002-08:00

k im feeling sleepy so this post won't sound as exciting as it seems.
Sorry.
KAY.
Heehee laughed so much with randy today.
Woah I swear eye contact with him can be electrifying.
kay so.
he was so interested to know my school.
I dont know, he asked me if i'm rly from zhonghua.
HAHAHA then I wrote my real school la,
then he said i spelt peirce wrongly
cute lor.
then we started doing more rubbish
and then i was so touched ppl laughed when i say put the name thing as sweettalk
Zheng Qi laughed at the prata tsunami wong name HAHAHAHAHAHA
BUT ITS HILARIOUS RIGHT
I know..
then after that nth else lor, fkifhoehfrqwhdoahhzs
now i dunnoe whether to add him as a friend.
don't feel like leh,
very stupid to add also.
mehhhh.
shall wait till he add me.
but he rly very cute ))):

2012-02-17T06:42:00.000-08:00

So come back, come back, come back to me like you would, you would if this was a movie.

2012-02-17T04:31:00.000-08:00

qinwen thinks i'm weird.
sobs );
mehhhhh. gonna forget about him alr la so self-centered. Phui.
Not going to delete what i blogged before,
because I have nothing to fear.
Kay back to what I wanted to say.
Omg swear Randy, Zheng Chee and his friend are the most funniest jokers in this whole wide world.
*PAUSE*
Wtf yijie you fucking suck so much fuckyoufuckyoufuckyouuuuuuuu.
You make joanne cry until like that, what kind of man are you srsly.
fuck you, you don't deserve a single girl at all.
you don't tell me you don't know a single shit about joanne's feelings.
fuckyoufuckyoufuckyouuuuuu.
*RESUME*
okay so I talked to Randy for the first time ytd omg happiness overload.
he helped me in a question omg HAHAHA can't believe how stupid I was.
soooo, made him lend me his papers.
AND THEN MRS LIEW DUN ALLOW.
She threatened for him to finish the whole paper if he lend me
and then he got scared hahahaha
then I was like, "RANDY."
and then he looked so lost. Cute anot!!
Omg hahahahaha and then he lend me in the end coz mrs liew went into the kitchen
then zheng chee told her to take her time haha.
omg zheng chee is so cute i swear!
asked him what is -3+12 and then i counted down from 5
and then he was like uh uh uhhh
HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA Y HE SO CUTE.
but in the end randy laughed and told me the answer.
cute right!
and then go home that time I said bye to him :DDDD
hola hola hola hola holaaaaaa~
haha i swear that i had a f damn good time with them ytd.
<3<3<3
ohhhhhh texted manfred after feeling horrible with qinwen.
omg he is so sweet to me, )': miss him soooooo muchhhhhhhh )))))';
he sounded like he misses school too ):
and he made me feel like crying so much also, his first Yo! just.. ):
Blogger, I miss him so much ):
I want him to come back so much.
Thought I lost feelings for him coz of qinwen,
but no. It stayed right where it should be, not moving a single inch at all.
I love manfred so much still.
Love you baby boy, please get well soon and come back for school.
Miss you so so so much ):
love you dear! <3

2012-02-13T04:52:00.000-08:00

damn, damn, damn, what I'd do to have you here, here, here.
I wish you were here.

2012-02-13T03:05:00.000-08:00

fuck. erased the whole thing.
anyw,
got qin wen number from brasel and texted him.
omg he is so cute!!!!!!!!!!!
97338550 ^^ ^^ ^^
didn't know he would reply leh omg damn happy hehehehehehe.
then today pulled him down beside me when he was getting up to make him point to me where st gabriels' is.
WEISHENG YOU SUCK SO MUCH.
hahah then talked to him more when i was waiting for fwh and yanxi.
he is so cuteeeeee omg dying from the cuteness.
love him like craaaaaaaazy hahahahahahaha.

2012-02-10T10:01:00.000-08:00

fucked up day.
a rly fucking fucked up day.
it was okay in school la, just keep getting a feel that wilfred likes me alot.
zz.
so, um. ummmm.
nth much happened in school la.
everything just went wrong during x-country today
fml.
fmfl.
from top 20 to champion to top 5 to a fucking top 50.
fucking lost in the name of hawk house.
Whye Hin also didn't make it, fuck it.
Fucking gonna get screwed la fucking cb.
(AHHHHHH OKAY WHYE HIN SO CUTE ARGHHEDKBSLKDWIUDS http://www.facebook.com/profile.php?id=816489053&and=100001182965085)
okay anyw,
ya la.
fucking disappointed with myself.
Fucking cramps in my stomach.
Really felt like just lying on the ground and cry okay.
fuck it la fuckkkk.
Told whye hin to train me for 800m alr, not fucking gonna lose to Shermaine.
Bitch bitch bitch bitch bitch.
anyw went to emo with whye hin, and then don't know why wilfred likes to come so close
then he touched the palm of my hand but HAHAHA he moved it away.
but aiya. dunnoe la. then omg qinwen is forever cute i swear.
AAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH.
oh did i mention that my st. gabs husband is coming next monday ohoho <3
yaaaaaaaap, nth much la.
just emo-ed here and there, then pushed wilfred down but then he grabbed both my arms and then i almost fell too ):
MANNNNNN I MISS MANFRED )))';
i can really say that i like him.
coz most of the time if i don't see a person often i'll be neutral with him.
but i still like manfred, up till now.
St gabs husband different story la, he was my chilhoodxsoulmate friend
Randy is my soulmate, THERE'S NO DENIAL I SWEAR.
Qinwen is just SO DAMN CUTE AGKSGHJEWAVSA <3
haha. but manfred is different.
Manfred please please please get well soon ):
then I went to joanne's house to bake
and fuck.
her mom is the worst bitch ever.
fucking ass.
so fucking angry with her.
fuck.
dsurgtvqsidadoiqwjfohefcoeahfoedfcehrpoihflds.
don't even wanna talk about her.
fucking make my blood boil only.
_l_
cb sia.
ruin my whole day only.
fucking angry la.
AND YUPPPPP THIS IS MY WHOLE FUCKED UP DAY.
At least my mama and papa love me so <3

2012-02-03T19:41:00.000-08:00

What if I stay forever.
What if there's no goodbye.
Frozen for a moment here in time.

2012-02-03T19:18:00.000-08:00

k guess what.
Learnt that jinyi likes manfred too.
fuck it.
fuck it.
fuck it.
everyone just stay away from him.
ugh.
but really if i were you I'll definitely choose them over me.
I mean really.
Compare myself to them.
Of course I'm the ugly one here.
):

2012-02-03T06:55:00.000-08:00

Not the first time I heard that Manfred is anorexic,
didn't really worry about how it could seriously harm a person too.
but after what ms huang said today,
Fcking mindblowned for real.
It really make me very, very sick with worry.
She said a person with anorexia will slowly starve himself to death or something,
coz his organs start to shut down by itself.
Seriously manfred why do you have to be like that.
You look okay just the way you are,
you're not fat at all.
Ignore what other ppl say about you,
ignore all those hurtful comments.
***
Anyway, before I continue with manfred,
I swear bryan is a real fcking jerk.
say not like he wants to talk to dawn.
DUWWAN TALK TO HER THEN DUN TALK LA
YOU CARE ABOUT WHAT SHE SAY FOR WHAT.
CARE ABOUT YOUR REPUTATION ONLY,
PPL WHO REALLY KNOW YOU WON'T BELIEVE DAWN RIGHT.
CAN YOU DON'T BE STUPID REALLY.
FUCK YOU FUCK YOU FUCK YOU.
***
back to manfred,
hope you really get well soon dear! ):
ppl only love you when you're almost gone,
but I swear I love you even before they do.
please god please make him get well soon,
make him eat right and come back for school ):
ilym.

2012-01-28T07:44:00.000-08:00

I'll never, ever lose my temper with my mom and my dad ever again.
I'll do well for olevels, and I know I can.
I realised how bad I've been to my parents when Freddy talked sense into us on the 26th of January.
He really made us wake up, the whole of 4E and 5A cried.
Cried for how we didn't notice things we should've noticed in the past,
cried for how we didn't respect our parents as we grew up.
and cried for finally understanding how much pain they've gone through just to have us.
And they've never gave up on us once.
The programme really helped motivate me to be successful in life because it makes me see that I am born a winner.
I must do well so that I would bring justice to the other 20 million ppl who really gave this life to me even before I was born.
It's just like having a thousand ppl who risked their life to get you out of a gas chamber and died for you, and yet you live your life as a loser. A bummer. A one who considered himself lousy.
Yes, I truly deserved to be tortured.
But now, I would work hard.
I would make the 20 million ppl, my parents and most of all myself proud.
I'm sorry for being such an ass in the past.
Now that I know what to do with my life,
I would not let it go to waste.
I would give my parents the life they've wanted to give me and my siblings so much.
Yup, cross my heart. <3

2012-01-20T04:38:00.000-08:00

Nothing much happened today ahahahaha.
Just feel like blogging since I'm like damn bored rn.
Asked manfred if he's int in joining the same tuition as me.
Haha he was smiling like craaaaazy the whole time
so yupppppp hope he join.
Omg i've yet to really find out who that Randy guy really is AAAHHH.
Damn cute sia he really.
And i have no idea when weisheng is coming to my school.
Hope he comes fast, got so many things to catch up with.
Chih Hsin chatted with me also,
sweet of him sia. Can sense that he misses us like really alot.
And omg first time I so famous on twitter *proud*
^^ ^^ ^^

2012-01-09T03:05:00.000-08:00

Forgot to update on you guys yesterday.
We sent Chih Hsin off la,
decided to skip the boring parts in front because it's boring like duhhh hahaha
brasel came halfway, then she started talking about bryan bryan bryan bryan bryan.
haha really really.
soooooooooo, yup boarded the sky train to T1 and then from there chih hsin was ignoring us like we srsly not there at all -.-
but okay la, took a polaroid with him.
Omg love love love love love him ttm la.
but too bad he went to canada alr ):
wah I tell you, bryan cried his heart out like crazy.
Damn heartbreaking ok ):
Ppl like him, I like.
Yea then after sending him off, we go back macs then play daidi for awhile before walking to the bus interchange to go back home.
Slept on chuhui's arm on the way back, super comfortable really <3<3
heehee then that's all I guess.
Mostly sticked to chuhui coz he's my best guy friend now.
Haha okay let's push the sad day aside.
Manfred talked to me in school today.
Actually he was like "what the shit" this and "what the shit" that
then turned around to talk to him la hahaha
he said he was damn scared, and he wanted to go to canada also
but i said that to wenlin earlier so haha he copy me.
He poked me with his index finger omg my holy right arm <3
but ryan say manfred keep on pmsing him ):
Aiyo manfred ah )));
Haha so yup I guess that's all.
I would write longer but really, I don't remember anything special ytd except for bryan crying /:

2011-12-30T07:41:00.000-08:00

Nobody understands how sad I am right now.
Chih Hsin is going away,
and ppl only care for crystal.
I mean, it's okay.
Crystal liked him for three years straight.
But still..Chih Hsin is my best friend since eternity.
Fucking good best friend for life.
For ever.
Haiz ):
Went for his bbq today, actually didn't wanna go at all.
But I felt that that's not what a good friend will do.
So I went.
And then I tried blending in with the girls.
Quite glad they tried to include me haha (:
so we were laughing and all, then we took pictures.
I took one with chih hsin, i guess it looked damn ugly.
But really, I was damn sad.
Yup, before I went home I hugged him. Omgggg (':
He was all skin and bones but he feel very warm.
Haha. It was a hug better than crystal's one.
Damn sad laaaaaaaaa.
Nobody to go track with.
Nobody to go home with.
Nobody to laugh like crazy with.
My godddddddd.
But heeheehee. Manfred. Today. Ahhhhhh~
He asked whether I wanted a lift back omgz!
Still like him even tho chih hsin don't like.
HAHA.
Fun, yet sad day.
Love Chih Hsin so much <3<3<3
Haiz.
All the guys I like all taken.
Chuhui likes wynne.
Whye Hin likes evan.
Manfred maybe like wynne.
Chih Hsin is leaving. And he got Crystal.
Jee Ern..is just nahh.
Haiz.
When will it be my turn. ):
heyyy.
Chih Hsin, if you see this which you probably won't,
I just wanna say.
Good luck in your future endeavors in Canada,
don't ever forget me (':
come back soon, visit me again okay (:
Love you soooooooooooooo much. Really.
Love you so.
<3,

"I have died everyday waiting for you, darling don't be afraid. I have loved you for a thousand years. I love you for a thousand more."

2011-12-26T00:26:00.001-08:00

Forgot to update that I meet up with Chih Hsin just to chat
Hmmm, can't really remember the date but I know we talked about quite a number of things.
Like how he's going to Canada for a better life and etc.
Haiz.
All my friends are leaving me.
Christabel. Him. Joanne. Jonathan.
):

2011-12-10T00:43:00.000-08:00

Kkk deleted the two remaining useless and super embarressing blogs.
Wtf why did I even typed all of that shit down.
K so anyway, I went to guangzhou for like almost a whole week
and I can really say that I had the TIME OF MY LIFE.
OMG I MISS JONATHAN SO DAMN BAD.
Sniff )':
Just hope hope hope he'll come to my school ):
Omg I can really cry la.
Haiyahhh ):

So,

The first day I can only remember that my mom was pissing me of like crazy.
Keep insisting that she help me with my luggage then andy come scold me.
Fucking embarrassing only.
Then queue up by myself to check in my luggage and then my mom bought macs for me.
Then she left me alone with a table full of staring strangers to eat my breakfast.
Wtf srsly.
And it's like 4 am plus plus plus ok.
Ok, so went into the departure room AND MY PARENTS DIDN'T SAY BYE TO ME.
OK CAN FINE. WTV LOL.
So just do this do that and I found out that I was sitting in between marc and jon
soooooo I change place with jon coz number one,
I thought I need the toilet coz my stomach was hurting like crazy at that time and number two,
I didn't want to sit next to marc.
Omg jonathan was sooooo damn funny i swear.
Coz our side is more dimmer than the other side, so he said something like "coz the sun is shining from there!" when it was like so pitch dark outside LOL.
Had alot of fun sitting next to him and hearing him talk all the crap.
And we ate things like pocky and hello panda.
then I lent marc my DS and then both the guys played wifi soccer while I was sleeping with my jacket jonny threw on the floor so many times.
So at last we touched down, and we did the usual boring stuffs la like take luggage board bus to the sports school and DAHHHHHHH.
And then we checked into our hotels
Me and Charlene are in room 310 and then jonny was in 319. HAHAHA OK I'M DAMN MEAN.
But yknowhut I was actually so glad nat wasn't in the same block as us. Coz she likes jon and if she likes jon I won't be having the time of my life LOL.
walou then we still need get ready for training ehhhh. Irritating.
Yeaps, so the training was tough. SERIOUSY TOUGH.
The pool water was like SUPER HOT. COLD. SUPER HOT.
Made me so sick. Ugh.
Yup, haiz lorh. I only like the yoghurt they give for lunch and dinner HAHA.
Sooooo, we skip the boring parts.
I know second day I was so close to giving up swimming but somehow I pulled through.
Charlene was so talkative LOL. She also got one time miss her mom so badly /:
haiz. So anyway, yup skip to the last few days la.
The first session of dai di was damn fun LOL. Altogether we have three.
So the first one was okay, I don't remember anything LOL. OH I KEEP WINNING DAIDI HAHAHAHAHHAHAHAAHAHAH
k anyway, second one was at raphael's room.
Jonathan and I was like permanently in the game LOL coz we too lazy get out from the chair.
the highlight was cheat LOLOLOL!
Jonathan keep cheating 1J HAHAHA. Then when charlene put 2Ace he was like super pissed, slammed down his cards and ask for replay HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAH
So just keep cheating and cheating until it was almost impossible to cheat coz lawrence almost got the whole deck HAHAHA
but in the end I win coz I pro ^^
HAHA then after playing go back htoel room sleep lorh.
Then the third one was at jon's room.
play until very shiok, firas was super funny.
Say his dick was 5km long, then can fit into a house fucking shit HAHAHAHA.
jon was beside me all this while, then he suddenly took the blanket from me LOL.
and then as he got more tired he kicked me out from his bed. TIRED OK.
Then last day. Training was okay, acceptable.
WAKOU I TELL YOU TRAINING CAN GO ALL THE WAY TO 10+K A DAY OK.
ok anyway, last day of training alr, we went shopping and stuffs until lawrence came back at 10+.
AND OH YEA MY PEPSI SPILLED. So marc and charlene helped me clean up then jonathan came to our room for dunnoe what reason.
then suddenly lawrence lost his itouch then we had to help him find soooooo
end up I found myself in jon's room packing marc's stuffs LOL.
Then coz 1 plus alr what, I ended up sleeping on jon's bed while jon was on marc's bed and marc was on my bed.
so more or less I spent a night in jon's room.
He left the tv on wtf.
okay so yea end of fun liao lorh, check in get on plane fly to singapore collect my luggage next to his and then byebye ):

Miss him alot now la. Miss having him to high five me in the pool. Miss seeing and hearing him laugh. Miss talking to him. Miss playing daidi and other card games with him. Mannnnnnnnn hope he really come my school la, please please please please please. ))))):